Waiting Game

I find myself with some time, or rather not wanting to do any school work, so here's an update. For the second weekend in a row, I am without a husband. Last week he spent time with his brother Robert and his family. He had a free ticket, it was spring break, so I told him to go and have fun. This weekend, he is off camping it up with the young men/scouts over in South Carolina. Thus I have time.

We have been in Atlanta now for almost 2 years, the longest we have ever lived in one place since we have been married. But Richard will be done with school soon and I'm starting to have flashbacks of my senior year of college. I had a daily planner that I had my life written down in. Every day of every month had some assignment or appointment or lesson plan idea in it, up to April when we graduated. About 2 months before we graduated, I just remember flipping through the pages and looking at May; open blank May, and suppressing a panic attack. Now I like to think I have matured some in my faith and understanding (maybe a little?) and I haven't had a panic attack yet about anything. But I think that is because it's not real to me yet. Maybe because I have so much going on at work and I know that I will have a job until the end of May. Richard has been applying to jobs and working hard, but he hasn't heard anything back yet. So now we flip through the calendar and turn to June and July and say ,"Now what?" While at my little brother's wedding, this seemed to be a wonderful topic to discuss with some of my family members and they wondered, "What are you going to do? You don't have a plan?"

But you know, like I said before, I haven't had a panic attack yet. Sure I think about it and I know that we need to have some sort of plan (and we have come up with some contingency plans, etc.), but I honestly feel like Heavenly Father knows what we need and we are trying to live worthy of blessings from Him and I know that we'll be fine. And I know that my parents would really appreciate us moving in with them, especially at this juncture in their life. :) Just kidding Mom!

So all those of you who say "What's the plan?" I say, we're going to do everything that we can, have faith, and trust that things will work out the way they are supposed to. Now those of you who know me probably think that I am not writing this, due to my psychotic nature of being a worrier and planned out freak! Don't worry, I haven't lost that, but I have learned some things from the experiences I've had in the last 20 months or so and I'm trying really hard to do it right this time...we'll see if I'm up to the challenge come tomorrow, but I'm trying to have faith that I will be.